the Mammal Chronicles: March 2006

when it comes right down to it, ya lactate or ya don't.

Friday, March 31, 2006

Staying out of trouble.

So here I am, journalling online again. Got me into trouble before -- we won't get into that. So why am I doing this? I suppose I miss the dialogue. Some friends started blogging recently, and it's nice to hear their thoughts. Sometimes I want to talk back.

Perhaps I'm also hoping it'll break my terminal writer's block, or at least loosen up the internal editor that silences me. I've been thinking about that today -- I'm working on a grant application that would allow me, if I got the grant, to start on a research project I've been thinking about for a while now. It's a neat research project, but it also makes me wonder why I want to start research afresh when there's another book I probably should have written by now. The research is all piled up, there's even lots of writing done (that my internal editor thinks is crap, btw), and I'm even probably one of the only ones, if not the only one, that has any significant research on this particular topic. Even the new topic has already been done by others, if in different ways. But the old topic, it is mostly just me I think, and it probably won't always be.

So I'm going to try with this journal (I'm so old school when it comes to online journalling that I still call it that) not to edit myself too much. I used to fuss with the old one alot. My internal editor tells me it will be less interesting, certainly less eloquent. I think I will fire her.